Seriously.
Grow the fuck up and stop acting as if you are in high school. Sad thing is I took your side over my best friend that told me to watch out for you. Just because you are the youngest out of the group does not mean that you allowed to act spoiled around us. No one is going to baby you here. Just because we took your shit all semester does not mean that we will forever. Thank god no one is rooming with you. Actually no one wanted to room with such a moody, needy, and selfish person. You aren’t a nice person and you are not willing to listen to what advice your friends give you. I hate you, but not enough to say you aren’t my friend. I just know I can’t trust you. If you steal my money and take my stuff and then use me and afterwards talk shit behind my back don’t come to my face and act as if you like me and you are a friend. You aren’t genuine and this is exactly why you walked out of high school with two close friends. I’m actually nice enough to even let things consistently slide along with the others. I’ve learned my lesson the hard way, but the people that matter the most are the ones that believe me and would say the truth regardless of how mean it is. But I am going to be a good friend one last time and going to sit down and talk to you. I’ll say what I have to say calm and collected. I will not raise my voice or point fingers. I will address what is important. If you have the least bit of maturity than you will listen and understand.
You have no right to raise your voice at me.
<3
Everyday with you is a blessing. So thankful you came into my life. I’ve never been so happy (:
Lately.
I do think about you more than usual. I’ll admit it, I miss my best friend. Yeah you don’t trust me, but was cutting me out of your life was really an option when you always said that you would never not be a part of my life. I don’t know what you believe about what I said about you or not, but all I know is that I never wished/thought anything bad about/for you. I think the only reason why I’m not standing up for myself is because I’m done fighting and trying to argue what I did right/wrong. I don’t know anymore if I’m right or wrong, I just know that I miss my best friend. Telling you every little/big thing that happens in my life. Especially now, when the biggest thing has happened, you don’t understand how badly I want to tell you, but I can’t. I wish that you could talk to me like before. You still mean a lot to me, but if me not being in your life makes you happier, which it seems like now, than I’m completely okay with that, because you are happy.
This is just building up inside me. This time I thought I had it right. I thought I had that best friend that would last forever. Once again, I’ve failed. I’m sorry. I’m willing to put everything, all my trust issues, the entire past behind me, just so I can talk to my best friend.
Torn.
Who to trust. Who is telling the truth. I really don’t know. I feel like this is so ridiculous, that it has to be a dream. I don’t know what I really believe anymore. This is a decision that I need to make soon. Before things go to far and it’s too late. Just when things seem to be falling into place, something goes wrong… Exactly what I was worried about.
